Rainy Days :)

I love the rain... When I was little, I used to hate it. I had to stay inside, and there was nothing to do but school work and looking at the rain. But then we bought a farm... and things changed. We had one good year then we were in drought. It hasn't really broken since. So I have learned to love it. It helps if you don't mind getting wet or love reading!

Last week, I had my first paid day at the school! It was so great! It made me want to be an aide, as in for a career. I love working in the school, taking care of kids. But if I was to do that, I would want to go through uni. I don't know. I don't know what I want to do for a career. I wanted to be a chef, a pastry cook. I really love that. But if I get married, the hours are really bad. I couldn't be with my family. I have to pray about it, but having patience waiting for doors to open is really hard. I can't see myself being a pharmacy assistant for ever. But I don't feel right about leaving yet. I think I have some lessons that God wants me to learn there. Like loving someone unconditionally even when they are shouting at you and "everything is your fault" when in fact it is the other way round. That is a tough one to learn. This probably isn't making any sense. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, I love the people. But it has it's moments.

Ok, it is bed time!
In Christ,
Sarah

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Today was very sad for me... Last week one of our friends had a terrible loss. Her husband, who was suffering from MS, died. So everyone around town has been a bit down since then, but today I found out that it wasn't from the MS that he died. He commited suicide. That nearly broke my heart. He had been saying for years that he wasn't going to just waste away. I think it was incredibly selfish of him. He doesn't know the pain it has caused his wife and the boys. All he was worried about was not being a vegetable. Although maybe he thought it would be easier on his family not to see him wasting away. I don't know and probably never will, but I feel terribly for his wife and sons.

But on a brighter note, I'm gong to get a little bit of paid time at the school! Tina, the other aide, won't be there for a day so she got the school to give me her hours. And as I'm only a relief aide... I get paid heaps more.

Ayala got sick with a cold/flu yesterday. We asked her if she had started "oink-ing" yet (!). But when she went to the doctor, they said that, no,it was only a cold. Phew!

My baby sister is goin to turn 15 on Thursday!!! I can't believe it! She is old enough to get a job... to be considered nearly grown up. Wow! I never even thought this would make me feel OLD. And what makes me feel older is that my baby brother is about to turn 13. And I'm old enough to move out of home (not that I'm going to!), to get a car, to be totally independant. Well, nearly totally independant. Sort of... lol.

Well, I have to go. It's tea time...
God bless,
SARAH PATRICE MCFARLAND

Are you a fool?

Ok I know that people think "Me? A fool? No way!!!" But stop and think about it for a minute... Have you put away childish things? Not totally. Do I get a but carried away at times? Hmmm... Well, I found this quiz on another blog and it really makes you think. "><">Are you a fool? Quiz.

I haven't been writing a lot lately because I haven't had anything worth writing about and what I have been up to is so gloomy you will all be depressed! Sorry. A few people I have come to know or I know their families have recently passed away and I have been a bit preoccupied.

Well, I am a bit more cheerful now, things are starting to happen around here. Like I just signed everything to start my traineeship!!! I have been waiting for it and praying about it for over 6 months now and my boss hasn't got around to it, but finally it has come to fruition and I'll be starting in about a month. :D

It has been really cold here... Today it was only 2 degrees Celsius at 1:30 in the afternoon. And the fog didn't leave all day, so it was very gloomy feeling. Most days I get on the school bus and at the next stop a girl gets on wearing a mini dress (then I start shivering!) and I think "Silly girl!"
Cold and I don't get along so well... Except when I'm skiing!

I have started getting back into crocheting. Kath found a thing called scrumbling. What you do is basically do what you want, you don't follow a pattern and you can make the most amazing things! You can go out one way, the go a different direction and then do something completely opposite... It's fun.

Anyways, I have been basically talking about nothing, and I have to go :)
Talk next time...
Sarah

I need a holiday!!!

Ahhh! I don't know what it is about work that gets to me... I love it, but at the moment my boss isn't being very smart. She won't turn the heater on, she will go for a bike ride in the middle of the day to who knows where (which is highy illegal because a pharmacist isn't allowed to leave the premises during working hours if there isn't another pharmacist on duty.) she gives us an impossible amount of work to do in a busy day the wonders why it isn't all done at the end of the day, and when it isn't busy she wants us to be doing something all the time. And the other thing that bothers me is customers getting cranky when you don't meet their expectations (or in other words: that you aren't perfect.) I think it is time for a holiday... Like to the top of Queensland for the rest of the winter! Where it is nice and warm. :D

Does anyone have any brilliant ideas for a short story topic? I might be entering a competition called "Haywire". You have to live in a rural Australian community and be between the ages of 16 and 20. At the moment I am about all topic-ed out!

I have to go, I'm just about falling asleep on my computer!

God Bless
Sarah

"Some throught the water,
Some through the flood,
Some through the fire
But all throught the blood.
Some through great sorrow,
But God gives a song
In the night season
And all the day long."